just now.

I am slowly seeing the truth emerge; there never will be all the time I want or need to do all the things I wish to. There is always, however, enough time to do what I need to. When my children were little, always home and with me, I thought that when they were in school I would have time for the creative projects I was interested in. I was convinced that I would suddenly have 6 hours a day in which I could delve into absorbing work and play. But my children are definitely the most absorbing work I have ever done, and I have more to do now than I ever did! In the last few years I have noticed myself laboring under the same kind of fallacy... only this time I have been trying to make myself believe that once my children are grown and gone I will have loads of time and all the flexibility in the world. Alas, I am gradually becoming aware that this, too, is only wishful thinking! So, all I really have to work with is the moment I am actually in... I can plan and hope and dream, and if I am at all wise I will make goals, but it's the future. So things can change a lot between now and then. Yes, a bit hazy, but still very, very bright!

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